Living Today

Thank you for your prayers, cards, calls, support gifts and awsome home cooked meals. Thank you friends and family, you help me to keep moving forward on life's journey.

Notes on living in the day: I have no idea what tomorrow will bring; Patience, gratitude and acceptance require constant adjustments to my perceptions; Coping with ambiguity is an act of trust.

For months, I have not called, written or e-mailed, I have  not kept my blog up, not used my computer, checked e-mail or used my cell phone. I lost my ability to walk, focus my thinking or use my hands. I am relearning to do things and will start to communicate again.

I thought hallucinations were wild visions. I have had visions and dreams I can not separate from reality. People I know seem to be acting weird or threatening.    I have had visitors or conversations I have no memory of having.

Yes Virginia, there is a chemo brain. I can not trust my memory. Some of what I remember never happened or my recollections are very jumbled. I have started a list of things I have lost or misplaced. If only I could find the list.

Well back to the races once around the dinning room table is the first step to a 5K.